MythicalNine

Hello everyone that bothers to read my journals that updates once every six months, welcome back to another update + rant about the past and future and thank you for coming here.

As the title says, I finally graduated my three years long education! Despite my animation not being finished for the grand required-to-do thingy/class, it was still accepted. I sure did bit off more than I could chew tho, I realized that more and more the longer I have worked on it, as despite intense days and weeks when I focused my all into doing progress - I'm still not done. I have been teasing about it for too darn long tho so I'm not giving up on it, I WILL GET IT DONE (sometime this summer, gotta do some other stuff before I can get there...)

I guess I just don't have so much more to say right now about my two and a half years I've been at this school, some was really cool some was not, but in the end, I made it through and I'm happy about that. My course overall had a graphic design focus, but I also studied basic animation and game design (the latter not getting much time at all but... oh well :v).
    After this kind of course you're meant to continue studying as this was as I said, mostly just basics, but you could also apply for work and such, depending on what you personally feel like doing.
    For me... I don't know what I want to be working with tbh. So for now my plans are about taking it easy, look for a job so I can get some kind of income, and try out art projects I have wanted to go through with for a while. Finishing the animation being one of them.


So for now, I have some vague plans about what to do in the nearest future. I have a couple of art projects like the animation and finish the two other winners for the small competition I held a while ago, speedpaints... And writing of course. I'm very happy to be able to say I have really gotten into writing again and now I am focusing on trying to make some kind of first draft done for Sorami, writing it in a chronological order and pushing through no matter if I feel like I could do better - at least it's something I can actually work with when I go back to edit once I'm done drafting. It doesn't need to be perfect the first time around and that's something I've forgotten these last years, it seems.

So yeah, feeling pretty good when it comes to my writing right now ^^


I haven't been the most active both here or on my instagram. I have been saying this a lot and I know it's probably annoying to hear it over and over again, but I will return. I will come back with more content, I will improve and I will get better. I'm not giving up. I'm stubborn and optimistic about the future, I will find my place and continue to grow. All that is needed, is time. And I hope you're not giving up when it comes to yourself or your hobbies either, whoever you are reading this. Remember you are loved and valued, and that patience is key. You will get through it too, I believe in you.

The last year has been emotionally and mentally hectic, I guess that's why this journal turned more into about thinking (as if they're not always kinda like this tho xP) than about art. But I'm just a person who also happens to like doing art, I guess?

okay need to stop acting so philosophical for no reason haha-

If you read through this all, know that I love and appreciate you lots<3



Until next time,
Nine

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Soo, it's been a little while since my last update journal, maybe time for another one? I would like to try to update once in a while at least, feels good to just write stuff out sometimes.

So where am I going to start? No I didn't get an A before as I thought. It was two. IDEK, HOW TEACHER HOW//
    Anyways, that was some time ago now since I got those news lol. But it's currently 1:30 am here and I thought that was a fun thing to write/
   
Well well, half of my summer vacation has passed by now. My last summer vacation. I've been working the past two weeks also, having a "summer job" (does other countries do this too or is it a very swedish thing?? idk), so going to have some more money to spend soon (y). Guess if I'm going to buy games n stuff~

About my creative thingies, I have begun writing again, yay!, and I'm also working on two bigger drawing-things that I am aiming for to get finished before the end of this summer. And speedpaints. Sorami-related-ish, you're going to like it I think~

On another more serious note, something happened very recently that messed me up big time mentally. But I think I am starting to get over it now, somewhat. I surprise myself at how strong I am going through this, but having a wonderful best friend and some great friends really helps a lot, as well as a very supportive mom who took it even better than I thought she would. I am so incredibly thankful for all of it.
    Let me just tell you how therapeutic it is to have characters also? Seriously, I feel like I've learnt so much more about myself thanks to them. Didn't know I had part of the Trash Can (Simon Raven) in me either, haha, which I'm honestly pretty okay with at this point. His confidence and pride is kinda appealing to me, and apparently I gave him my own temperament which I just think is hilarious because it wasn't planned at all. It was just how I imagined would fit him and his character, and then I suddenly realize years later that it's me. It just somehow feels easier to deal with this way, somehow? I feel more comfortable with that part of myself too. Same goes for a couple of my other characters too ofc, most of my characters have a part of me, small or big, subconsciously or not, and I just ??? I like them. I like me. I like imagining their growth, their struggles, their determination, their hope. I feel a bit more comfortable in my own skin, which I wasn't years ago. But now I'm here, and past me would've been so happy to see how far I've gotten.
    Didn't mean to become so emotional sorry//

Not even sure if anyone is going to read this or not, but it feels good to have written this out. I'm going to keep trying. I'm going to keep my eyes on improvement and progress. And I'm going to keep taking care of myself, and others around me as best as I can. I deserve it, they and you deserve it. One person can change so much in other people's lives, whether as a romantic partner or good friend. Whether bad or good. And I want to be a good person to them because that's who I want to be. After all, you reap what you sow. So if I sow nice things? Well, flowers are really pretty, aren't they?


Until next time,
Nine

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Next week is the week the pain is officially over, I really really hope. To be honest, there is still just a few assignments I still haven't been able to finish, which is just great isn't it. I will probably fail in that subject, but only temporarily, I hope. I have sent a mail to my teacher asking if I'll be able to finish the works during some kind of summer school or so. I feel so bad for not prioritizing that subject, but hey, I might get an A in another one apparently ???
Idk how either, don't ask

This term has been... Very un-motivating. I don't know what exactly made it that way, but very possible it's because so much has happened at the same time. A few messy teachers and assignments etc., etc. I just so look forward to the summer now, to draw and write and hopefully animate a little.

And try to hide from the heat as much as possible until mom literally throws me outside to get in the sun//


Oh yeah, one more thing. Going to upload a special kind of video to my youtube channel later today that I'm really looking forward to! Keep your eyes and ears open~
...Maybe I should draw something for it too tho, we'll see how much time I'll have xP


Until next time,
Nine

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