Soo, it's been a little while since my last update journal, maybe time for another one? I would like to try to update once in a while at least, feels good to just write stuff out sometimes.
So where am I going to start? No I didn't get an A before as I thought. It was two. IDEK, HOW TEACHER HOW//
Anyways, that was some time ago now since I got those news lol. But it's currently 1:30 am here and I thought that was a fun thing to write/
Well well, half of my summer vacation has passed by now. My last
summer vacation. I've been working the past two weeks also, having a "summer job" (does other countries do this too or is it a very swedish thing?? idk), so going to have some more money to spend soon (y). Guess if I'm going to buy games n stuff~
About my creative thingies, I have begun writing again, yay!, and I'm also working on two bigger drawing-things that I am aiming for to get finished before the end of this summer. And speedpaints. Sorami-related-ish, you're going to like it I think~
On another more serious note, something happened very recently that messed me up big time mentally. But I think I am starting to get over it now, somewhat. I surprise myself at how strong I am going through this, but having a wonderful best friend and some great friends really helps a lot, as well as a very supportive mom who took it even better than I thought she would. I am so incredibly thankful for all of it.
Let me just tell you how therapeutic it is to have characters also? Seriously, I feel like I've learnt so much more about myself thanks to them. Didn't know I had part of the Trash Can (Simon Raven) in me either, haha, which I'm honestly pretty okay with at this point. His confidence and pride is kinda appealing to me, and apparently I gave him my own temperament which I just think is hilarious because it wasn't planned at all. It was just how I imagined would fit him and his character, and then I suddenly realize years later that it's me. It just somehow feels easier to deal with this way, somehow? I feel more comfortable with that part of myself too. Same goes for a couple of my other characters too ofc, most of my characters have a part of me, small or big, subconsciously or not, and I just ??? I like them. I like me. I like imagining their growth, their struggles, their determination, their hope. I feel a bit more comfortable in my own skin, which I wasn't years ago. But now I'm here, and past me would've been so happy to see how far I've gotten.
Didn't mean to become so emotional sorry//
Not even sure if anyone is going to read this or not, but it feels good to have written this out. I'm going to keep trying. I'm going to keep my eyes on improvement and progress. And I'm going to keep taking care of myself, and others around me as best as I can. I deserve it, they and you deserve it. One person can change so much in other people's lives, whether as a romantic partner or good friend. Whether bad or good. And I want to be a good person to them because that's who I want to be. After all, you reap what you sow. So if I sow nice things? Well, flowers are really pretty, aren't they?
Until next time,
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